Soon

When you have something you cannot live without, and you imagine living without it, it's so hard it almost breaks your heart. 

But when you actually have to live without it, it's harder than you could have ever imagined. It's so painful you can literally feel your heart break into many little pieces and settle in the deepest bottom of your gut. Everytime you breathe, you feel the pieces rattle and you feel the extent of emptiness in your being. 

You wonder to yourself,

Will I ever be able to fill this void?

And your answer is,

One day.

The real question is,

But when?

Then you tell yourself silently,

Soon.

How soon is soon?